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Over the next few tabs, you will find all of the Discussion Questions provided by Big Library Read that go with the title Uncommon Measure by Natalie Hodges. 

 

You can join the discussion on https://biglibraryread.com/join-the-discussion between May 15th and May 29th, 2025. 

How does time shape consciousness and consciousness, time? Do we live in time, or does time live in us?  And how does music, with its patterns of rhythm and harmony, inform our experience of time?

 

Uncommon Measure explores these questions from perspective of a young Korean American who dedicated herself to perfecting her art until performance anxiety forced her to give up the dream of becoming a concert solo violinist. Anchoring her story in illuminating research in neuroscience and quantum physics, Hodges traces her own passage through difficult family dynamics, prejudice, and enormous personal expectations to come to terms with the meaning of a life reimagined -- one still shaped by classical music but moving toward the freedom of improvisation.

1. The New York Times lauds Uncommon Measure as "a genre-defying memoir." How does the author's personal narrative intertwine with the psychological and scientific concepts she illuminates? How would you classify Hodges's merging of memory, music, and scientific investigation?

 

2.Hodges describes classical music as a genre "at the dusty peak of Western high art, one in which contemporary American culture is increasingly less interested." Have Hodges's reflections or her accompanying playlist enhanced your appreciation for this art form? What were your impressions of classical music before and after reading the book?

 

3. Hodges evocatively recounts her deep longing to play Bach's Chaconne and her difficulty with practicing it. For violinists, she writes, "it's the pinnacle of our repertoire." Why does she feel so drawn to the piece, yet so reluctant to play it?

 

4. The "Chaconne" chapter offers, in part, an alternative to the "five stages of grief" as a model for how we come to terms with loss. In your own experience of grief, does it tend to take the form of a linear progression ("stages") or as the author says, of "iterative, circular variations, different feelings and memories buried within one another"? Why or why not?

 

5. Despite her academic success, Hodges has identified as "someone who never felt confident when formally studying math or science." She revealed that "the biggest epiphany for me, while writing this book, was the realization that you don't have to have a STEM background in order to explore and delight in science on your own terms". In what ways are science and art connected? What new ideas did the book spark within you about creativity and the our brains experience conditions such as performance anxiety?

6. On top of the immense stress of striving to become a soloist, Hodges feels the added pressure of being a "model minority." Fail to make the most of your opportunity, and all your family's sacrifice was for naught," she writes. How does her experience as a Korean American shape her relationship with classical music? How do the internal pressures of her family and the external force of assimilation influence her identity?

 

7. The author has a complex relationship with her beloved mother: "She gives, I take: that has always been the imbalanced equation of our relationship, its asymmetry and equilibrium." Is this imbalance inherent in the mother/daughter relationship? Do you agree that there must always be a "frightening asymmetry at the heart of love"?

 

8. Hodges outlines an "immigrant credo": "to be able to give your children what you did not have yourself." Her immigrant mother passed on her love of music and worked tirelessly to ensure that Hodges and her siblings could have instruments and lessons. I what ways is the violin an opportunity but also an obligation for Hodges? Did her mother succeed in giving her daughter what she didn't have herself? How did the stereotype of the Asian "Tiger Mother" harm her mother in family court, in her relationship with Hodges's Father, and in society as a whole?

 

9. As Hodges mourns the loss of her identity as a violinist, she writes, "I felt haunted by a monumental sense of failure, of aborted struggle and lost time." Yet she found new joy and freedom in jazz, tango, and the magic of time's smooth movement during improvisation, "a strange feeling, beautiful but also eerie: not only that you can step into time's flow, but that you are the flow itself." What is your experience of time and improvisational flow? Have you ever felt time moving differently? Is time every truly lost?

 

10. Hodges opens and closes the book with the same idea. Connecting our subjective experience of time with a revolutionary physics experiment, she concludes, "If you want to change the past, all you have to do is try to record what happened in it." Do you agree? In writing this book, has she changed her own past? Has your perception of time, and creative possibility, changed since reading this book?

Dear Readers

 

Thank you so much for downloading this copy of Uncommon Measure: A Journey Through Music, Performance, and the Science of Time. I am honored that this book has been selected as one of Big Library Read’s book club titles, and I am grateful to you for reading.

 

When I began working on this book, I found myself paused at the threshold between two times: the near-twenty years I had spent preparing for a career as a concert violinist, and a blank, uncertain future without the violin, after new-onset performance anxiety left me unable to feel the flow of musical temporality during performances. I started writing to figure out why my brain caused time to stop each time I approached a tricky run or treacherous chord progression. I wanted, too, to come to terms with the passage of time itself: to find a way of articulating what it means to shape the narrative of one’s lifetime around a singular devotion, and what it means to let go.

 

As I researched Uncommon Measure, however, I began noticing connections and patterns that pointed far beyond my own experience as a musician and the realms of music theory and performance psychology. It felt increasingly necessary to reach outward to see what neuroscience, physics, even
poetry had to say about time—how we move through it and how it moves through us. In attempting to bring these disparate fields together, I realized that a deeper yearning beat at the heart of the book: to find my subjective experience of time’s malleability reflected in the scientific literature and in the stories of other people, performers and non-performers alike.

 

To me, libraries embody a similar promise: that each of us can seek our own humanity in others’ stories and find again and again that we are not alone, whatever our experience on this Earth. Even more importantly, libraries facilitate that promise’s fulfillment. By participating in the Big Library Read program, you are affirming the value and necessity of libraries and shared stories in your community and the world over. Thank you so much for your support, and thank you again for reading Uncommon Measure. I wish you the very best always.

 

Sincerely yours,

Natalie Hodges